I know you can't have everything you want...

But is having my own bed so much to ask!??? D:

I want my own bed!! *cries like a baby*

Ta'ra!

I Am Not Pathetic, Really

I just saw my duty roster for the month of December...and it will be HEEELLLLLL!!!!



Well, it won't be if you're used to working five days straight a week. I'm still on a college student schedule you see...



Basically I work five days straight then I get 2 days off. But this isn't some damn office job. I'll be mentally unstable by the time I get to the fifth day, just you wait and see!



Anyway. I wanna talk about last night. Again, I worked a double shift. It originally was a 'special request', but it really was an executive order in disguise. I could have refused, saying I had plans, but I didn't. Mainly because I'm greedy. But really, I'm not complaining, because there are other people who got more crap than me, but I have never seen other part-timers in other units (or even ours) pulling that kind of extended shift like me! Yet knowing I have the extra time to do wrapping, I rushed through like a madwoman on steroids and still I got told I didn't do good enough!

RAWR!!

My spirits that were soaring high up in the sky plummeted down to the ground then crashed and burned into a million pieces - all in a matter of a fracture of a second! After being told that, the smile froze on my face and I cried inside. Have you ever cried inside before? Let me tell you it's not easy! Certainly wasn't pleasant either! You felt useless, pathetic and hollow inside yet you still have to pretend like you've done an amazing feat and still trying to brush it off as nothing big.

It was so hard.

So hard when your worth is measured in trolleys.

So hard that I had to take my time to reflect afterwards. Instead of taking the taxi, I waited for the bus simply because I needed that waiting time to reflect on what just happened and come to terms with it. To convince myself that despite it all, yes, despite it all, it only serves to confirm what an awesome person I am.

I have stamped my foot down before, and I will do it again. I want to be here. I'm here on a mission, and nothing on this Earth can stop me from completing my unholy mission! Ever.

Jiggly puff can try and jiggle her fat all over me for all I care, but you're the one without a life outside of Kino, while I will have a much better life once I leave Kino.

And besides, it's stupid to let idiots like her to stop you from achieving your dream. Can you imagine one day when your grandchildren ask you why didn't you do what you want to do and your answer is "because an idiot colleague stood in my way and I got tired of it"?

How pathetic is that?

I hate feeling pathetic. I hate feeling it, even just for a moment. Thus I shall not resign the rest of my life to feeling pathetic. Shall I fail in that endeavor and still feel pathetic, I'll make other people feel pathetic with me.

Let's hope it never gets to that.

Ta'ra!

A Quick One

In the middle of an instant noodle lunch!

I've had two outings with people from work so far. Such outings are always fun and the people you go with are quite random because all of us have only two days off a week. While part-timers can request beforehand which days they can and can't work, full-timers are left to the mercy of their unit chief. Both were movie outings.

It's fun because you get to talk about things you can't at work. All those power plays and social clans are best avoided and just hang out with neutral people. Either way is fun for me, because I like taking advantage of any situation I'm in. OOooh that's so bad XD. But it's better than being drawn into other people's battles. I'd rather be in my own and content to stay there until my opponent is eradicated! Hahaha!

Anyway. Three movies yesterday. Ninja Assassin at Times Square and then came home and watched Kung Fu Panda and Madagascar 2. Luckily for me I have the afternoon shift today. Those two have the morning shift today hehehe.

Overall, I have a clearer picture of the situation on why this and that are the way they are. It's not called being nosey. It's called getting your bearings. I'm relieved that other people share the same opinion as me on certain people an situation, which means that I was not being paranoid all along! I was simply being too nice.

Me? Nice!?

I need to get to work. Ta'ra!

p/s Redz, I work at Kinokuniya.

xD

I'm in the middle of ironing my uniform. Again, I seriously cannot see myself doing this full-time in these hand-me-downs. But I needed the experience.

Anyway, yesterday I finally banked in my cheque. It was so ridiculously simple I wondered why the girl at the counter didn't laugh at me. It will only be cleared after next Wednesday after 4 pm. That's fine since I'm not in need of the money right now.

Though I do have some important purchases to make soon! The X'mas promotion has started! Wheee!

Time for work! Ta'ra!

Flying Off My Feet

I've been flying off my feet the past week. I do enjoy this increase in my personal efficiency, but I suppose I can't help resent the fact that while I was speeding up, some people were slowing down. One even thought himself too senior and important to be doing what I was doing! Seriously! Years of service doesn't change the fact that our positions are the same.

And I hate the way you walk. Real men do not walk like that!

Ahem. Anyway. I love my job, really. I can't help it when there are seniors who are not happy that I was getting too familiar. Well too bad! I have dreams. I'm here because I have dreams. And by the time I finish this job I'll leave with a lot more than you ever will! So I'm stamping my foot down and you can just eat fart because I'm not going anywhere! Yet.

Also, panicking students make good customers. I'm earning almost two weeks of salary in the last 24 hours.

Ta'ra!

Payday!

Yay! I finally get my FIRST EVER PAYCHECK! It's not much, by all means. But it was from my own hard work, so I'm happy!

Then I blew it off on a pair of blouses!

Nah, just kidding! These were taken in the fitting room at IOI Mall. We took a few blouses and tired them on for fun hehehehe. Bought nothing. My check is still in tact hehehe.

Oohhh I'm gonna be rich. Amin.

Ta'ra!

Funny Encounters

I'm entering my fourth week as an employee of a certain Japanese bookstore and already the funny events are piling up. So far I've had one person reccomending me a book, which was totally fun because she dragged me across the store and pulled out the book from the shelf and told me to read it. As I was scrutinizing the book, deeply amused, she disappeared into the deep end of the business section looking for a Japanese audiobook. I quickly put back the book and led her to the language section and pointed out the Japanese audiobooks. She said she was interested in learning the language and sighed at the high price tag of the audiobook. I told her a phrase book was cheaper, but she wanted to hear pronounciations.

So I suggested a teacher instead.

We started talking about language schools and I told her about the one in KL Plaza. Apparently she's heard about it, but she was leaning more towards the audiobook (if you ask me, she just wanted to buy something which was totally understandable XD). Afterwards I left her to occupy herself with the audiobooks and those four books already in her hands. She had approached the counter in the first place asking for a calculator to calculate how much her purchase would be, and of course, sighed at the high totals too. xD xD I told her they were totally worth the purchase (she did ask me about it!) or she could buy half today and half tomorrow hehehehe. Needlesstosay, I was quite unhelpful in that respect. xD Even going as far as saying she'll be having sleepless night if she doesnt buy them.

Just the other night another woman was looking at two books by the same author. One was from the 90s while the other is recent. She acted like I was doing her a favor (which was nice!) by unsealing the books for her (which was really part of my job) and was justifying each books to me in detail. She gave me a lecture on soy. Yes, soy! As in soya bean. I told her it's fine if she decides not to get either one of them. It wasn't as if I was pitching the books to her in the first place. She was so repentant when she had to return the books to the counter it was so funny!

Just today, this caucasian old man was looking through the Tin Tin comic books and was asking if I could unwrap one of them. I told him of course, but it has to be viewed at the counter. Apparently he's a regular of the Tin Tin series and understood the protocol well. He browsed through and immediately put it down. He wanted it in color. The book was still black and white. After that he started explaining why he wanted to see inside, because he heard about the publishers planning to reprint the book in color. Then he started telling me how he's a regular of the Tin Tin comics in the store and about several banned series in the country. He even talked about this Indian woman who married a caucasian who apparently wrote something of note and he invited her to have a talk at UM. He's a lecturer there. Man. I wish I had a lecturer like that!

Also, another interesting pattern: 3 caucasian women so far have asked me where to find so-and-so books whose shelves are right behind them. I had to grin while they howled at their own silliness. Ah yes, this is exactly why I love my job. xD

Ta'ra!